My last day being 23

It feels weird today at work.
Either its Mondays blue or the shock after a week of absence from work.
But I think that's not it. I think there's too much med in me now....
After religiously taking antibotics after each meal on every single day for the past 1 week. I feel like a plant. A plant feeding on chemical toxics.

Thank god, no more antibiotics!

The meds must have caused some flip flops in my hormones because i 've been feeling rather senstive and nostalgic. I don't know why i didn't even feel like leaving my home on weekends(which i usually do) and all i wanted to do is to lay back on my comfy bed. Or maybe iam just plain lazy. Cant decide but i'm blaming the medicines.

Sadly but true, im turning a year older tomorrow. I am having mixed feelings right now bout it.
I really really wanted it to come because i have been thinking that the past 1 year hasnt been pleasant to me and hopefully, with my birthday coming and going.. the curse would be broken or something.
On the other hand, i'm pretty sad im a year older. 24 seems like a huge sum.

So, what am i going to do for the deemed special day? i have no idea. Ppl kept asking and i kept saying i dont know. But the fact is. I really dont know.
I really cant think of anything fancy nor have the mood for anything in the world right now.
But im quite afraid if its my hormones doing the tricks? i can't tell for sure if i really NOT want anything and do anything special on my birthday (which i usually like to) or its just my hormone talking to my brain right now.

Frustration continues at work because i am friggin unproductive.
I dont know if i should be feeling pleased at this or what... but i dont like the fact that i feel like a log at work.. not having anything practical to do.

I know some ppl may think iam some crazy bitch who cant stop complaining.
But like i say. i think its my hormones and the meds.

I cant help. Even as iam typing now. i'm feeling furious at myself for contradicting myself all the time..

Goodbye 23. You'll be missed. Not.

trip to india

I was ffk-ed by a friend of mine last night. Dont't wanna talk about it already. So damn pisssed off.

Luckily i had a friend with with me and so happened her brother's friend were somewhere near celebrating a friend's birthday.

So i joined them while waiting for Randy to pick me up.

Lucky i had my camera with me to express my anger.
NO. not by throwing my camera or smashing it.By camwhoring la!

come come... who else wants solo pics with me.. *cough cough*

the lucky birthday boy

my legs look freaking long here

I look damn china. lol. like a china gal visiting india.

Veni's brother think i look like geisha summore *swt*

Anyway, cheerss to all~

OPs i did it again!

Its thursday again today isnt it?
guess what?
i've just skiped the thursday lecture again.
NO........................................Pleaseee listen to me..!
It's due to some UNAVOIDABLE CIRCUMSTANCES.
No kidding. Serious matter laa..... need to go sunway for some make-up thingy.

*giggles*

er... well, at least i find it serious ma..
I really really felt sorry and guilty lorR... trust me! trust me!!
!
*giggles*

Oh well, scrap that.

Now, due to the public's demand.....your beloved, "me" is gonna write some political stuff here..
So, you guys just sit patiently and bare with me while i grumble and whine about my tutorial class ok..

So there... recently there has been some issues with my class. This person doesnt want to grop with that person and that person doesnt want to group with another person. What the heck is happenning eh?
There's really a serious problem with certain people.. really beh tahan their attitude, i felt like choking them.

First of all, we have this kiasu No.1 in class.
Kiasu no 1 is a shepard cause she owns a lamb.. ahahah..*hint hint*
This kiasu shepard hor, is not just blaarrdy kiasu but at times her words is damn sarcastic.
No doubt she is smart in the brain la but so what?? probably can die due to excessive reading! ok.. i know i created that.. but heck! its true what! you keep reading reading reading who knows, when you graduate with first class, you end up in mental hospital. Aww... isnt that so sad?

*wahahhahaa* .........................

I know i'm so evil but i really can't stand her lorr...
Furthermore she offended me ok the other day! so habis la her.... now i'm gonna bitch bout her non-stop...kakakakakaa
How she offended me??

Well, the other day we had a random draw for the brand we suppose to do for an assignment.. and my group got the brand firefly (an airline) and the kiasu group got Coach (designer's goods and apparel ). Upon hearing the brand Coach i got damn excited la you see and i asked their group whether we can exchange wth them... since they dont know what Coach is.*Pitiful* (see... study study study until Coach also dont know is what.) Yah, then... this other guy were considering whether to chnage with us..... Meanwhile, we went asking around what is firefly and noone seems to know and i kept yada yada-ing on Coach non stop la...

So right, the kiasu girl overheard me praising Coach like god and all she quickly yelled at the leader and told him not to exchange with us! SO kiasu right!! Dont change ma dont change laa! ceh, not like you know what Coach is anyway! bleh!

And what pissed me off even more is when our tutor explained to us about each brand and asked us if we know what firefly is, we answered No... we dont know. Guess what! The kiasu girl turned and look at us and said "FIREFLY WORRRR.. YOU DON'T KNOW MEHH??!"

Kiss my ass!

If you know all along why keep quiet!! and even more reasons you should change with us!
Yea... so what if i dont know what firelfy is? you know what?! Cause i dont sit on some cheap ass plane like you and even worse, you dont know what Coach is. PITIFUL!

Oh anyway, i am glad we stick to Firefly cause we can refer our previous advertising assignments, but poor you.. nothing to refer... *hahahahaha*

Not just that lorr, apparently she got problems finding group members also. She only want smart ass to group with her. She was being so picky that she ends up with only anoher kiasu grouping with her.Sad to say most groups needs to be in 5 at least,not 2 and that makes her forcefully accepting a few more members who is left not chosen by others. Sad sad. Her initial plan to have the best in her group ended up with some black sheeps in it. Poor thing.

*Evil laugh*
Serve her right!

wahh... so long ad my post..



me bitching

See, when girls bitch bout others, it comes so naturally and all the words keeps flowing non stop.
Magic.

By right, there's still another sad case fella i wanted to blog about.. but i think i leave that to christine la.. she can bitch even better with her vast vocab. Hahaha...
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My brow is so thin i'm almost brow-less! Thanks to the make-up artist.
Probably she jealous i got thick and bushy eyebrow...
*sob sob*

Sick sick sick

I have been sick for more than a week... and i am getting even more sick!
sick of studying!!!
Arghh!! i just need to express my anger and frustrations over everything...

I am so demoralised to study since yesterday after seeing one of my coursework marks. Call me kiasu if you want. Bahhhhhh... i dont give a damn anymore. I do care about my marks. Indeed i care ALOT.

Everything seems to make me feel from bad to worst...my coursewrok marks especially made my self esteem go wayy below ground...
at time like this, how do u expect me to go on with my books when i know there isnt anymore hope to score or even to do well in my finals??

DISSAPOINTING. BIAS. UNFAIR.

I seriously need to utter these words out loudly!!
Why does all tutors seems to stress that they are not bias but the fact is they are totally bias!?!
i thought english was bad enough. but heck NO!.. even other tutors seems to be VERY bias in giving marks and evaluating our assignments! what the hell happend to ETHICS?

C'mon.. tell me how u rate participation in class?!

Does it simply mean that making uneccessary noise and asking stupid questions are participation....that simply deserves 9 or 10 marks for a total of 10 marks allocated for participation??!

oh, so those who manage to get "your" attention is what u call participation eh?!
we're not circus clowns to seek attention nor some shoe's cleaner trying to "polish your shoe" ... arhghh... god damn it.

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Was supposed to have some discussion and seek for Dr sham to ask on certain things i've doubts on... but of all days,he's on MC today!! wahahaha -_- here come's another subsequent bad event...

Dicussions later on made me went cuckoo.

The more they discuss the more i felt lost.. and made me wonder what i have been reading.
These people kept talking about information they got from this book, that book, that notes, this notes.... but what i have is a pathetic thin sheets of notes. -_- which is not even complete i think..

life's like a piece of fruitcake for them,

and like a piece of shit for me now.